Let's just say, "SOCIALLY AWKWARD"....

Well, i ventured out for my birthday (the 15th...still catching up) to Starbucks...Stew told me to spend the morning by myself there relaxing, journaling...reading and sippin on some good ole latte!! yum! So i ventured out....

As i drove there, i felt like everything was so bright....hadn't gotten out of the house in a while...oh, well...a million thoughts went through my mind as i was deciding what i would drink, read and write....i arrived at Starbucks ready to go, but when i entered through the door and saw all the people, something came over me..."social awkwardness!" to say the least....i saw all these people drinking, reading and chatting and just felt like i didn't even know how to act around adults! crazy, i know!! but it happened...i went to the counter to order my drink and she nicely welcomed me and asked what i would like and i said, "This is for here" DUH!!!! why would i be in there? if it were to go, i would have gone to the drive thru and who ever says that at starbucks anyway! (OneTOO MANY MCDONALD'S for me i would say!) the lady looked at me like i was "SOCIALLY AWKWARD" and said, can i get you a drink...after 10 minutes of deciding, i ordered a drink but totally forgot to tell them iced b/c it was 200 degrees outside and then i ordered a pastry and she asked if i wanted it on a plate or in a bag....i guess this would have been where the "for here" would be okay....but instead i told her to put it in a bag, as if it were to go!! ...i promply paid her and sat waiting for my drink....I was so insecure!! ha! i tried to laugh at it and start reading or writing...but i couldn't.....just kept looking around at people...i didn't know what to do with myself without kids, husband or dirty diapers to change! So, after 30 mins of looking around and trying to sip my HOT latte, i left. We'll try again later....

And so, it happened AGAIN!!! Except this time it was at an eye doctor. I have a stye under my eyelid that needs to be drained surgically and so i went to a specialist...i had been trying to plan this appointment for 4 months. SO i arrived...I forgot my insurance card...(in the diaper bag)...forgot contact case....(in wesley-grant's toybox)....and glasses (which wesley-grant broke both ear pieces and i have tape around them like a nerd!) Well, we worked through all that and now i was seen into the medical room. I couldn't even see the doctor or her nurse b/c i had my contacts out, so i don't even know if i was looking at them half the time! They began with a list of questions about medical history and about the only one i could answer was my name, oh and the condition i was being seen for, of which i TOTALLY mispronounced!! I told them i was sorry i wasn't answering their questions very well, but that i had "2 kids in 2 years"....What in the world did that mean???!!!!?!?!?!! AWKWARD!!!!!!!! anyway, the doctor asked me how old my children where and i told her wesley-grant was "20 mos. year old"! They asked me who my optometrist was and i told them i didn't have one that i bought my contacts on "contacts.com"....then they said it was so cold in the room and appologized which i responded with "no problem, i have a built in heater" (meaning i was breastfeeding and was hot b/c of hormones) and proceeded to explain, "i have 2 heaters b/c i am nursing my little girl".....WHAT?!!!! Okay, at this point i wanted to just get up and leave...but i continued to embarass myself with more crazy coments.....i'll spare you! but again, "SOCIALLY AWKWARD"!!!!

there are more, but i'll let you just laugh at that for a while......thanks for letting me vent my "SOCAILLY AWKWARD" moments........i really need to get out more often!! or maybe this is just part of being a mother!